又是一场 梦。

        我想起 ，有天梦到了自己突然就出现在钢琴考试的现场，可是发现琴谱根本没练好，一点都不熟悉，必须硬着头皮上场，结果整个梦就是在后悔。这是干嘛？考钢琴都几百年前了。

        很多年以后，依然清晰记得那考场。酒店的大堂很明亮，踏在大理石上的鞋发出清脆的声响，咯､咯､咯地踏进了升降机。从上头飘来的悠悠古典音乐里掺杂着酒店独有的气味，心情跟着七上八下。地毯使得周围有点安静，又有点声音，心情和现实都很muffled。到达了考试的房间，还得担心如果听不懂外国人考官说什么该怎么办? 总之，经历了八次，那酒店地毯升降机悄悄地成了阴影。多年以后，我依然时不时会梦见自己突然就站在那关着外国人考官的房间前。梦里不是紧张自己没练琴，就是迟了大到，或是完全忘了有考试这回事，隔天才惊吓地想起。荒谬得很。现实中，我没有真的考砸过，也没有迟到过，也不可能忘记过。所以，十年后还梦见自己一直迟到忘记fail了这钢琴考试是怎样？

        我想，那是因为我知道，我也没有全力以赴过。

Oh-myyyyyy moment

It's October and I don't even realise!
Man, it's already October.
OMG. I am gonna be a year older (not so soon but soon?).
Whenever it's year end, I feel the dread.
Early birthday, sad case.


I feel even more older when I heard this song. There was a time when Japanese dramas were very popular, back in the late 90s and early 2000s. I still remember Beach Boys in 1996, I think the popularity started from there. One day, I am gonna rewatch them alllll. Old people do that, you know.

Lazy journalism is dumb, dumb, dumb.

The news media nowadays. They love to quote everything which internet users said. I have just read an "article" on The Star website where basically every new paragraph is a direct quotation from some internet users. Seriously?? You know what, even a 10yo could cut and paste those internet comments and make it into an article if that's what is required for an article. If journalism is going down that way, I will despise it. If you are a journalist who only knows to construct a news piece by scouring the internet and copy paste Facebook comments, I have no respect for you. If you are a news editor who allows that to happen, I have no respect for you.

Since when does random internet comments become a reliable source for judging a situation or event? You think you are quite fair to mix positive and negative internet opinions into your article,  and then, nop, no "then", you just leave it as it is and call it a day. I tell you, that is really dumb. Lazy journalism is really stupid. Articles which lack critical thinkings and constructive reasonings have NO VALUE AT ALL. (grumble) 

My history: The songs which I used to play again and again

I suddenly had the thought of posting songs which I was rather 'obsessed' with at one time throughout the years.

As far as I remember, my first ever encounter with pop music was Wakin Chau 周华健. I would sneak into my brother's room when he went to school, take out his Wakin Chau's cassette tape from his drawer, and play it using the cassette player, almost every day. I also used to steal my brother's A4 papers to draw, thinking that he wouldn't realise since he had a thick stack of it. I think I know every thing that was in his drawers, including a legendary love letter from his senior (which was addressed to my then 13-year-old bro HAHAHAHA). We always teased him about that. That's the "perks" of having younger sisters so bro you have no choice lah. Ok I digressed. I don't know how exactly did I discover Wakin Chau in my bro's room, but I loved his songs. I was probably 6/7 years old.

【Classics from Wakin Chau】

Then the next pop music encounter was when the Jay Chou era hits, in early 2000s. I liked many of his earlier songs, sadly I lost interest in his newer compositions many years ago.

【開不了口 Hard to Say it Out 】

Then I fell in love with a song from Faye Wong, because of that I purchased her entire album (cassette tape) which costed RM17.90, a huge number for a kid. I used my dad's money though, I think he wasn't very happy hahaha. Then I just began to love her work, especially the non-mainstream ones.

【流年 Fleeting Time】  (Looooved it)

Around the same time our own homegrown Fish Leong came to popularity. I liked this song because I liked a small part of electric guitar playing in it. I guess that's the first sign of my later musical preferences. Hmmm. I still listen to Fish Leong a lot nowadays.

【如果有一天  One day, if...】

In secondary school, my brother had a lot of Japanese Rock songs in the only computer in our house. So, I ended up listening to them and liking Japanese Rock music. I think I just happened to like whatever that was available around me at that time. But this time, this has a long lasting effect.

I was obsessed with "HOWEVER" by GLAY due to the fact that I couldn't quite catch the melody of the song initially. Then I listened to it every single day lol.

【 HOWEVER 】

Then LUNA SEA came and broke my liking for sentimental songs. Then the rest is history (lol). I did not like the vocalist's voice at all. But, hah hah, there is only a fine line between dislike and like. I freaking loved his voice after seeing him singing live (I still maintain that he is the best vocalist in the world *laugh*).

【 Gravity 】


【 Rain 】

Old but gold, the last 3 minutes.

And of course, B'zzzzzzzzzz.

【 今夜月の見える丘に Tonight, at the hill where we can see the moon 】

Needless to say, alan. First impression was, "WOAH", when I saw her mv on TV for just a few seconds in 2011/2012.

【 明日への讃歌 A Hymn of Tomorrow 】

My 2014 favourite discover was a relatively obscure indie band, a paindyne. My favourite song of the year is "soothe", followed by "宇宙人", then "quasar". Always on my replay list.

【a paindyne - moonscape】


【 HaKU - Hikari 】

This song is reaaally addictive.

Ok I can't believe I persevered through this post. I am lazy already. The most recent one is by Flower (again).

【Flower - Call】


Tata for now.

Wait.
Where are the English songs? Ok la must add one or two in. The fact is that there are too many.

【 Breaking Benjamin - Forget it 】


"Forget it" was on a loop for forever.

【 Within Temptation - Memories 】

The lasting effect being that, my musical preferences become very band-oriented, plus if you suck as singing live, I would lose interest very quickly.