Endless Night · 深夜

Thursday, October 04, 2012

大半夜的你在干嘛？

我有一个坏习惯。如果隔天有课，半夜都不睡，做功课做到天亮，然后时间一到直接去上课。
听上去好像很勤劳。
才怪，这只是一个坏的习惯。
即日夜颠倒，加上临时抱佛脚。
但如果不这么做，我睡不着啊，感觉好像还有很多东西没做，内心不安得很。
内心不安，上课就会失去信心（是的，我上课可是需要信心的）

结果，大半夜一边紧张一边用脑，一点都不好玩。
我想我需要的是一股压力，可以逼着我把事情完成，但同时又超讨厌这股压力。

有一本书，叫做《Steal like an Artist》 (by Austin Kleon)
教你怎么偷别人的 ideas。
听上去好像很猖狂，其实作者只是把事实摊开来讲而已，即告诉你，nothing is original。我也觉得，世上哪有什么原始的 idea? 全都是源自于某些事物的。如果你这一刻突然灵光一闪，也别忘了世上可是有几十亿的人几十亿的头脑，当中若有几十个头脑和你想着同样的事情可一点也不出奇。所以，谁能先把 idea 实现，他就赢啦。

《Steal like an Artist》里的十大条例：

1. Steal like an artist.
2. Don't wait until you know who you are to get started.
3. Write the book you want to read.
4. Use your hands.
5. Side projects and hobbies are important. （这个我非常支持噗）
6. The secret: Do good works and share it with people.
7. Geography is no longer our master.
8. Be nice. (The world is a small town) （是的）
9. Be boring. (It's the only way to get works done)
10. Creativity is substraction.

所以我要说的是，be boring, it's the only way to get works done. （哭）
还以为你要长篇大论地开始谈创意？！
所以纵使压力大，唉还是得乖乖做下去，那是唯一的方法。中小学时，我可是个不懂什么叫压力的人，放学后可以慢慢地折 origami，然后玩玩 Minesweeper, 然后就去睡觉……呵。现在，头发都变少了啊啊啊。

大半夜紧张兮兮时，听听以前中学时常听的音乐能有镇静心灵的作用。这是为什么呢？是那怀念的感觉吧。

这是网上留传的一则鼓舞人心的话语：

“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not.

But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”
― Ira Glass

必须去一趟图书馆啦。

Sunday, September 09, 2012

Mañjusaka

彼岸 · 花

《寓言》中，最爱的一首。

十二年后，依然不朽。

彼岸花，到底是 Flower of Paradise，还是 Flower of Hell 呢？

花的背后，是一些美丽悲伤的传说。

Such a beautiful live (*-*)

Withering. Blooming.

故事

从一双玻璃鞋开始。

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Woof woof! Roof roof!

Wanna be at home where everything is within reach.
Want to play the piano when listening to music.
Thinking of Poppy, did he realise I am gone? 9_9.
I always think though he is a dog, he has the attitude of a cat.
He always pretend to not hear you when you call him. In fact, he never responded when my dad or I called him, except when it was time to eat. In fact, even cats would respond. If he is at the backyard and you call him, he will not turn up with wiggling tail. He is probably lying on the stone table and attentively looking out the backgate. Your call is secondary to his business.

I stood on the balcony one night and called his name like a ghost to see whether he can actually hear. Nah we all know he can, since he likes to bark whenever he hears strangers' vehicles (damn scary when he barks seriously). He has the ability to differentiate the noise of family's vehicles from strangers'. Mr. Postman is terrified to pass by our house if our gate is not shut.

Maybe he knows that Poppy is such a "marketplace" name he chooses to ignore. Actually we rarely give special names to our dogs. He might already be Poppy Junior the Third. Oppps. We had Blacky, Jacky, Bobby, Pop, Poppy, Bob before (maybe 'Puppy' too?). Dido and Nini were the two with more special names. Eheh. There was one whose name was Andy Lala (lolol), but I am not sure whether it was our dog or our relatives'. This really is childhood memory.