All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken.
A light from the shadow shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

~J.R.R. Tolkien

Thursday, December 25, 2014

What is this?

This is the aprroximate content of a post I saw:
"The worst floods are happening in the country because God loves us so unimaginably deeply, the floods happen as a reminder for us in time of New Year celebration (guess she means we celebrated too much)"

She even mentioned Mas incidents. My brain just exploded with angst. Although we are friends and I have nothing against her at all normally, even always feel appreciative towards her because she helped me before, I still feel that the statement is stupid. High-level stupidity. Inconsiderate and insensitive. Are you a flood victim? Do you know the feeling when you know you can do nothing but seeing your house getting flooded? Gone?

In times of adversities, everyone has his or her own ways to think positively and be optimistic, be it religious or irreligious people.  But at all times, you need to use your brain. You can think whatever you like man, no problem. But once you declare it publicly, it means you expect people to agree with you. Sadly, not everyone believes in what you believe in, if you only immerse yourself in your version of truth (which is interpreted differently among individuals), you will continue to spit shits that other people might take offence.

But whatever lah. Hide the post, and voila. I only hope the flood situation becomes better, so I can go home and help.

Monday, December 01, 2014

以前所写的文字。

在整理电脑文件时,发现了以前写下的东西,感觉挺不可思议。

·小时候
  小时候看电视,都有固定的时间,固定的频道。以前只有三个频道可以选择,跟现在五花八门的有线频道比起来,我们只满足于三个频道真不可思议。家人都会聚在电视机前观看六点档与七点档的连续剧。六点档与七点档的连续剧分别在不同的频道播放,以前认为,连续剧的演员们都隶属于个别的频道。频道二的演员来来去去是同一群,频道三的演员来来去去是另一群,鲜少交集。现在想起,那是因为两档的连续剧分别是不同公司的出品,不同公司的演员演的而已吧。小时候的认知是,他们都是在电视机箱内工作的一群人;六点档的演员工作完了,就轮到七点档的演员工作。所以,当我有一天看见频道二的演员出现在频道三的连续剧时,大惊小怪了一下,还问姐姐为什么会这样?姐姐的反应似乎是为什么不会这样。这种情况,我觉得是小孩常经历的,在他们认知的“理所当然”跟现实有差误时。之前看到太宰治的《人间失格》里写道:

“第一次看见火车……我在火车的天桥上上下下地,完全没注意到这是为了跨越铁轨所建的,只觉得车站内的构造宛如国外游乐场,复杂又有趣,以为它只是因为时髦而建设 的……对我而言,在天桥上跑上跑下,是在玩着相当时髦的游戏……后来当我发现这是用来让旅客们跨越铁道具实用性的楼梯时,突然间觉得索然无味。”

  这种情况,我想不只我 一人能共鸣。 

  至今,六点档与七点档的连续剧早就没了。曾守在电视机前看粤语连续剧的我们,都听懂说懂粤语。反之,生活中没有这部分往事的弟弟,听不懂也不会说。这何尝不是一种损失?父母从没阻止我们看漫画看节目,因为他们对我们几乎是放羊似的教育,只是行为上不当的话还是得吃藤条。他们该庆幸我们骨子里没有使坏的基因。国文版的小叮当漫画让我们的国文基础打得很稳,小学程度的国文应付得心应手,上了中学也能依循地增强国文能力。中文版的也让我们学会了生字新词与繁体中文。至今,我对漫画仍有很大的喜爱,它们对语文学习真的很有效。
 
  我们都已失去了那“错过了连续剧很懊恼”的感觉。我们也已失去了那“新的漫画终于出版了”的感觉。这就是网络时代了吧。


·无题
去揣摩一个人做事的意思与目的,只会没完没了。越想下去,事情会变得越来越飘渺,忽然间一切终究只是你的妄想。你认为应该是那样的事情,已经变得不对了。何不无负担地看看眼前到底发生了什么?不必要的怀疑会让你的人生一点一点地变得不幸。

(感想:就是以前有点愤世嫉俗的我啦。) 


·绪(2008)
你说心困在难以自拔的忧郁中
最后的最后呀留下什么?一片荒芜
拨不开乌云
见不到婵娟 
(感想:就是以前有点忧忧郁郁的我啦。这篇还蛮长但算了吧,看了我都会忧郁。)

·忘 (2009)
“忘”会让人对事物、对生命掉以轻心

 
·这是
这是一个女孩的故事。这是一个只能活在别人回忆里的女孩的故事。

(感想:……结果就两句,没了。是怎样?!很吊我自己的胃口啊! 现在都不记得我到底要写什么。唉,果然今日事今日毕是有道理的。)


·Story (2010)

If a story is too big
it needs a very complete ending
and death
is the ultimate ending


(感想:What was I thinking? o_o)


就那样。