Speechless? Not yet!

There will always be barbarians running in the country who are still stuck in the stone age.
I could imagine talking to them is like talking to drunkards.

Drunkards: "No no no, you don't understand, so just shut up".
Yeah. Goodluck talking to these people.

I guess this is my strongest vent yet?
These people will never learn, because they never question. Questions are out of the question. If you brace yourself and look at how some people responded, as the internet always puts it, you do lose part of your "trust in humanity".

How to ensure one's loyalty to his country? Fairness. Security. Welfare.
If these are not done enough, the things that keep one's foot still in the country are just the nostalgic feeling, bonds, kinship and responsibility felt within oneself.

However, disappointments chip away these things, bits by bits.

Gaaaaaaaaah

I hate it when I lose something.
It's the worst when you realise ages after you have already lost it.
And if it's something of a sentimental value.


"I can't believe your freaking stupidity."
"Can you go bang yourself on the wall?"
"Can you just.....#%&@*^!"


When you are angry with yourself you just want to curse yourself.
When your memory fails you, you wish you will just trip and fall and then be angrier.
Yes yes, irrationality comes to play.

Maybe it's that little monster who steals it away.
Little monster whose existence you can't realise.
Giiiiiive iiiiiit baaack toooooo meeeeeeeeeeee

I might be better off if I don't remember at all.
But people are bound to remember things if things have already happened.
Lost thing will most likely become an obsession in your consciousness.


Just where the hellll did it go??

啧

有时候会觉得，世上很多东西都叫人恶心。
 社会之下，尽是些恶心思想。

 什么“思想”会引向一个好的社会？ 有些思想人类无法操作，偏偏还是有人自以为是。
人类无法操作，因为人都难以摆脱贪婪、得寸进尺、自以为是的本性，幻想着这种思想可以改变世界，但做出来的东西却是另一回事，美好也只是个人的良好感觉，旁观者可在嘲笑呢。 有些思想，只有没有七情六欲的机器才能胜任。

有些思想，已经是几百几千年前的思想，只适合当时社会当时风气的思想，偏偏有人可以执迷不悟，认为这种思想精神不朽，在现代可以发挥其作用，制止社会的罪恶发生。这些井底之蛙，到死都依然相信，解决问题的方法就只有他相信的才是最正确的。问题是，执迷不悟的其他人依然乐意附和。

哗，想着想着就一股火。教育中少了灌输critical thinking,不鼓励 pluralism, 后果就是一群死守古老思想的人。旁观者可在嘲笑呢。非常庆幸，我不属于某一群人，一群根本没有余地勇气批判的人。

刚刚看到了养燕行业的新闻，火上加火。某当局的某人如是说：“虽然有人投诉噪音及担心卫生问题，但那些问题还不严重，现在只能加强养燕指南。” 噢，原来问题还不严重就是没有问题。这种人，我真的想说去死，但人身攻击还是算了吧。
我对这行业感到非常厌恶。如果“当局”可以更有规划，规定那些恨不得能多赚钱掺一脚养燕的家伙到某特定养燕区进行他们的生意，一切至少安好。现在，这行业不只毁了家乡的市容（简直就是disaster），居民还得忍受他们根本不想要的噪音及卫生问题。燕子屋建在住宅区很明显是错的，可有些贪心人就是没有大脑。因为人的贪婪，无辜的燕子代替了人类让人厌恶着。


噢，难道今天是久违了的extreme mode? 感觉好像回到了中学时期。
那没有灰，只有黑白的时期。

又到了投诉的季节。

总会有一些琐碎小事，让人心烦气躁。而这些小事，小归小，却格外重要。归为小事，是因为你知道它将得以解决，不是什么无可挽回的大件事，只是一些繁文缛节让人心烦，耐性也被磨光。当你早在大半年前就开始着手解决问题，但有关当局在大半年后才通知你最好的方法是撤销你之前所做的，然后再开始着手，哗，真让人火大。大半年前开始着手，为的不就是希望早点解决问题，结果过程竟然那么复杂，哗，受不了，害人误了事，结果滋生更多需要解决的事，真的是去死啦，烦死了。耗了我大半年，现在我急了，他们能怎样啊？

这个福利好兼办事效率算快的国家办事已如此，怪不得大马更加糟糕了。每次看到报导说向某某当局申诉或询问意见都得不到回应，不了了之，实在是不让人惊讶的，因为你我在这里都曾遇过如此情况。这里的人办事不是得过且过，而是看了当作没看过。所以，我应该庆幸我的事情不需要在这里解决，至少每询问都有人回复再给予帮助吧，只是，整件事竟然要超过半年的时间？其他更重要的事情还在后头等我啊。哼哼哼哼哼！

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 好想去看一场演唱会、文化表演或交响乐啊。

明日的赞歌

我觉得她唱得好好听啊。
我想我对以歌唱为职业的人有偏见 。
看歌手唱live, 如果唱功好，我会像发现新大陆一般非常愿意去听听那个歌手或乐团的歌曲，除非歌手声音真不是我的那杯茶，除非歌曲类型我不会听 （你很烦呀）。Music player 里的歌，大部分是这样来的 （YouTube是伟大发明！） 

编曲与背景音乐对我而言更加重要 ，只是能把这些做得有层次，让人觉得“哗哗哗哗”想鼓掌的，很难遇上（Luna Sea 是例外啊啊） 如果听过某歌手或乐团，觉得歌还不错也对胃口，但现场破功……的话嘛，我会翻脸的。

偶尔还是可以妥协的。只是，大大部分背景音乐一定要是真真实实的乐器打出来的，不然我的耳朵拒绝聆听。（噗噗）

所以，bands & 交响乐万岁！

Common sense please

Some people are just without common sense, nonsensical etc. whatever you wanna call them.

I wonder why I always have food issues with my housemates. A few generations of housemates, not one. I mean, how hard is it to just open your mouth to ASK if you are not sure the food belongs to which party instead of opening your mouth swallowing the whole thing into your stomach? Ridiculous.

One year ago, people stole my yogurt. Some nonsensical person had the guts to eat my takeaway. Some people thought they could trick me after using my soy sauce by adding water into the bottle. Someone ate my chocolate clearly without my consent.
Recently, I thought I was paranoiac about the quantity of my eggs inside the fridge. I felt they were decreasing, but then I was not so sure whether I ate them. One day I opened the fridge, saw only 2 lonely eggs there. From that point I guessed I was not paranoiac after all.


That day, I went to buy milk, wanna eat my unfinished cereals. Back at home, I opened the cabinet.
Gone. My cereal was gone!
My immediate thought was people threw it away 'cause they might think it was already empty (now think about it, unless they are deaf or daft only they would do that). Ok, was totally fine with that, since there were just a bit left anyway.

I have 3 housemates. 2 of them were friends who only came in during June.
The other day. I was informed by my third housemate that the 2 were actually eating my cereal, and they even invited her to eat along.
See.
I don't accuse people wrongly now do I? Ok, but still excusable since they thought the cereal were left by my ex-housemate who moved out, so it's justifiable for them to eat.
*hit Caps Lock* WELL, SINCE THE CEREAL WAS ALREADY GONE ANYWAY I COULD ONLY COMFORT MYSELF THAT WAY *Caps Lock off*
Again, how hard is it to just ask? Hello~ There are other 2 people in this house apart from you guys. Actually I also had the gut feeling that my cereal was decreasing,  but I didn't pay much attention then.

Today. I put my leftover white rice in a bowl, and put it in the fridge so I can make fried rice later. Well, the fridge was quite full, so I put the bowl at the upper section which the 2 friends put their food. My mistake for putting there, really. I just forgot I HAVE to move it to a safer place. Consequently, I found my bowl empty later, oh complete with a few biji rice in it.

>=/
I tried not to judge people, but obviously it's just not possible as human personalities are just waaaaaaay too judge-able. (Eh, circular reasoning? whateeeeeva)
I can bear with the party-ings, with the noises, with the rubbish, unwashed tableware yadda yadda, but don't mess with my food. I will eventually eat you. Ask, and I shall share happily (or hypocritically lol)

Oh damn the whole lack of common sense.
Frank Llyod Wright once said:

"There is nothing more uncommon than common sense."

Keep on~ whining

Today I officially hate protruding corner.
Those stupid corners with just a few centimetres protrusion. For goodness's sake what for man. I am those who always kick on them, plus the fact that my steps are always big long strides......can you imagine the momentum when my toes hit one?

Just now, bang! and a few audible cracks and I was like "Ffffffff.......#*$&!"
It bleed, the kind that the blood dripped along my way to the toilet.

Once, I had to carry the blood from my cut finger using my other hand, and the blood actually escaped my knuckles and still dripped on the carpet. And that's the smallest deep cut I had ever made.
You have to admire the wonders of arteries. Or perhaps I lack some sort of vitamin? Hmm.

My friend's finger was cut by a bandsaw. That's really omg. Whenever I imagined that I have to shake my head and blink a couple of times to shake off the horrible scene.

One of that kind. Gaaaaaaah. Big machines scare me
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What a pretentious life.
喂你从前就已经悲观的了。

In mangas they always have this raison d'être cliched theme . Maybe it's too cliched, I always feel it's rather stupid.

It's all about me and me and me and me.
Oh man, where is the quiet secluded place. 我去成仙算了。

The next moment I might get heated up by whatever and start dancing.
3 is a cheating s****d broadband company. 
I dislike Tuesday, clueless meaningless a day invented for craps.

Don't be sinful

^&*Q#W%^$&%
Such a bad day in a long time.
Damn I need to throw some glasses porcelains whatever brittle really hard on the ground. No it's not DAMN, it's F.

Lust? Jealousy? Lies? They are said to be sins.

But stupidity, is really a sin. I mean conscious stupidity.
"There's no sin except stupidity."
Oscar Wilde.

>=\

I have a foul mood quite often recently. Grrrrr.

No longer in those emo periods, duh my teenage years had passed.

Yet something just prickles your heart.
Noise, people talking, too many people, movements etc.

I've pricked my heart!!!